Different kinds of Smart

I'm decently smart when it comes to math, science, and psychology. A little creatively smart when my depression isn't drowning me. Biblically/spiritually not even a little bit. It's frustrating to me. Usually I read something and it clicks. I get it. Or it doesn't take much for me to get it. But that is rarely... Continue Reading →


I don’t know anymore…

Disclaimer. Not that many people read these anyway. But. On the off chance some people do. I would suggest not if you don't want to hear someone whine and complain. Or force yourself to read it. And maybe you'll get a clue on how hard it is to do anything in this life of mine.... Continue Reading →

To Save a Life

Some people think it's hard to save a life. That it's scary. That it's too much to expect a "normal" person without "training" to do. But it's not always like that. Speaking from experience some of the most helpful moments I've ever had came from normal/average people in my life who cared enough about me... Continue Reading →

Attention Seeking

That phrase has one of the most negative connotations. People tend to see it as annoying, worthy of teasing, and pointless. But that's not the case. In my Early Childhood Education classes one of the things we talk about is attention seeking. The children who act out all the time and push all your buttons.... Continue Reading →

Trying to get Better

Alright. So if you've read any of my other blogs you'll know I've been depressed pretty much my whole life. And I don't really know what life without depression looks like honestly. And for most if not all of that time I've just dealt with it. It is what it is. Nothing I can do... Continue Reading →

Crazy Thoughts

You know I've been depressed for most of my life when it's easier to talk about my depression and suicidal thoughts than it is to talk about actual true emotions... Instead of being able to tell people I am feeling angry/frustrated and hurt, I fall back on "just trying to work through my depression." Which,... Continue Reading →


Depression really is one of the hardest things I deal with in my life. Losing friends, being over weight, hating school, not particularly loving or hating work (which is actually good considering most of the people I know hate their job), and having no concrete familiar relationships all suck. But combine them all with this... Continue Reading →


I wonder if you realize how many labels we have in this world. Mind you not all of them are innately bad. But in the end they are. They are things we use to box things up. We label things so we can put them into a certain category. This person over here is of... Continue Reading →

Leaving People stranded

It was flooding in California. As the flood waters were rising, a man was on the stoop of his house and another man in a row boat came by. The man in the row boat told the man on the stoop to get in and he'd save him. The man on the stoop said, no,... Continue Reading →

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